Last night, our God did an amazing thing. See yesterday I was driving to a wedding shower and had been listening to the radio and this song called "Mighty to save," came on. Let me share some of the words with you before I go on.
"Every needs compassion, Love that’s never failing,
Let mercy fall on me,Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour, The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains, My God is mighty to save,
Forever, Author of salvation, He rose and conquered the grave
So take me as You find me, All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again, I give my life to follow, Everything I believe in, Now I surrender"
Back to the story. Crystal needed a ride home from the shower so I told her on the way home she had to hear this song. Well right at the begnning my brother Steven called me to tell me that he had gotten out of Juvienlle Hall. The first few minutes were wonderful talking to him. It was SO good to hear his voice, but as questions were asked and conversation went on I soon began to realize that he was still wanting to do the things, that got him into trouble in the first place. We ended the conversation, and I proceded to play the song for Crystal. We were both crying, and praying for my brother. The next few hours were not easy, and I had all but wanted to curl up and stay there. I was lacking faith for God to do anything, and I did NOT want to go to Deluge and plaster that smile on. But something inside me told me to go. So I went, and this is where God really spoke to me. Out of ALL the songs that could have been played last night, we sang "Mighty to save," We had never even sung it before. I wanted to cry, scream, shout. I did not know how to contain myself. Then something inside of me said read Psalm 18, and there were 5 verses (30-35) that stuck out that read
"This God-his ways are PERFECT; the word of the Lord proves true; he is the shield for all those who take refuge in him. For who is God, but the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God?-the God who equipped me with STRENGTH and made my way blameless. He made my feet like the deer and set me secure on the heights. He trains my hands for war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You have given me the shield of your salvation, and your right hand SUPPORTED me, and your GENTLENESS made me great." I kept hearing him say go share it. So I went up to Danny with every bit of strength I had, and shared it. Immediatly he said I want you to read this now. So I got up to the mic. There were problems with it, and between all of that tears started forming and words were blending together. I apologized and started over again and as I read it I just felt peace fall upon me and realization of what I was saying gave me strength to believe that if He can move mountains, and He is the author of our Salvation than He can save my brother from the sin that has intangeld his heart, and blinded his eyes. I can't say that in the past 24 hours I have constantly believed that because I haven't but it has given me HOPE for him and a constant reminder that apart from God's grace I could very well be where he is. Lord there are no words that could possibly describe my how thankful I am that you have choosen me, and given me a love, compassion for my family. I pray that a desire to pray for them to be set free and for them to come to know your saving grace would continue to grow in my heart. I pray for a desire that I will want to read scriptures like I have never read it before. I don't want to be a christian in name only or one who "flirts" with the world. I want to be truly and wholy yours. Set my heart on fire and let that passion that burned in my heart in high school become evident again. You are so good Lord. May all the glory be yours!